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A lot of people suspect that South Carolina's Repulican Senator Lindsey Graham is a closet case, or at least like to joke about the possibility. Here's Americablog making the case for speculating on the topic without any actual evidence. Now it's certainly not the case that Graham is alone in this kind of treatment. Anderson Cooper of CNN was long a subject of speculation, and hey, it eventually turned out to be true! Former Florida Governor Charlie Crist is another one whose sexuality is a frequent subject of speculation.
This kind of speculation always makes me slightly uncomfortable, because a lot of people have assumed that I was gay for similar reasons: a long time bachelor who doesn't appear to be dating women. The fact that I've lived with a gay man for almost thirty years seems to seal the argument. Looked at objectively, I can't really blame people for drawing this conclusion, but it has bothered me from time to time to be misunderstood in this way. (It was particularly maddening at one point to discover that the entire staff of the Big Time Brewpub assumed I was lovers with a male friend with whom I frequently drank there, even though the reason I was always drinking *there* was so I could pine after one of the female bartenders.) To my mind it demonstrates the limitations of how we understand sexuality and its many variations. At various times I've tried half-heartedly or humorously to come up with terms to describe my own sexuality: autosexual (or wanker), perhaps, or maybe closet heterosexual. The fact that my sexuality is hidden or difficult to discern makes people project assumptions onto me, and while I haven't really suffered any kind of discrimination or ostracism as a result, it can be a lonely feeling to find that people don't see me for who I really am.
Because of this personal experience, I always feel a pang when people make jokes about Lindsey Graham (or Charlie Crist) being a closet case. On the other hand I do agree with the argument that Graham invites this treatment with is own vicious homophobia. It's a kind of quid pro quo or revenge. Nonetheless I think it narrows the range of human possibility to engage in this kind of counterattack. In an ideal world there would be room for closet heterosexuals (and asexuals) in the social imagination. Meanwhile, we deal with the reality we are served.
This kind of speculation always makes me slightly uncomfortable, because a lot of people have assumed that I was gay for similar reasons: a long time bachelor who doesn't appear to be dating women. The fact that I've lived with a gay man for almost thirty years seems to seal the argument. Looked at objectively, I can't really blame people for drawing this conclusion, but it has bothered me from time to time to be misunderstood in this way. (It was particularly maddening at one point to discover that the entire staff of the Big Time Brewpub assumed I was lovers with a male friend with whom I frequently drank there, even though the reason I was always drinking *there* was so I could pine after one of the female bartenders.) To my mind it demonstrates the limitations of how we understand sexuality and its many variations. At various times I've tried half-heartedly or humorously to come up with terms to describe my own sexuality: autosexual (or wanker), perhaps, or maybe closet heterosexual. The fact that my sexuality is hidden or difficult to discern makes people project assumptions onto me, and while I haven't really suffered any kind of discrimination or ostracism as a result, it can be a lonely feeling to find that people don't see me for who I really am.
Because of this personal experience, I always feel a pang when people make jokes about Lindsey Graham (or Charlie Crist) being a closet case. On the other hand I do agree with the argument that Graham invites this treatment with is own vicious homophobia. It's a kind of quid pro quo or revenge. Nonetheless I think it narrows the range of human possibility to engage in this kind of counterattack. In an ideal world there would be room for closet heterosexuals (and asexuals) in the social imagination. Meanwhile, we deal with the reality we are served.
